Thursday, July 28, 2011

One Thousand Gifts

Maybe I'm just melancholy this morning...but this made me cry...


so much so that I've got to read her book...One Thousand Gifts
This is an excerpt from chapter 2. (Thank you , Linda, for sharing it!!) It's very poetic stuff and it hit home with me immediately...

"For years of mornings, I have woken wanting to die. Life itself twists into nightmare. For years, I have pulled the covers up over my head, dreading to begin another day I'd be bound to just wreck. Years, I lie listening to the taunt of names ringing off my interior walls, ones from the past that never drifted far and away: Loser, Mess, Failure. They are signs nailed overhead, nailed through me, naming me. The stars are blinking out.

Funny, this. Yesterday morning, the morning before, all these mornings, I wake to the discontent of life in my skin. I wake to self-hatred. To the wrestle to get it all done, the relentless anxiety that I am failing. Always, the failing. I yell at children, fester with bitterness, forget doctor appointments, lose library books, live selfishly, skip prayer, complain, go to bed too late, neglect cleaning the toilets. I live tired. Afraid. Anxious. Weary. Years, I feel it in the veins, the pulsing of ruptured hopes. Would I ever be enough, find enough, do enough? But this morning [she had a nightmare about dying of cancer], I wake wildly wanting to live. Physically feeling it in the veins trembling, the hard pant of the lungs, the seeing it in the steady stars, how much I really want to really live. How I don't want to die. Is that the message of nightmares and dreams? To live either fullyalive...or in empty nothingness?

It's the in between that drives us mad.

It's the life in between, the days of walking lifeless, the years calloused and simply going through the hollow motions, the self-protecting by self-distracting, the body never waking, that's lost all capacity to fully feel--this is the life in between that makes us the wild walking dead."

Her answer to this is....Thanksgiving. Can't wait to read this book.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Danny on the bass

Might as well slide forward to 25 seconds so you can hear the music in the background. :)



Curriculum Decisions! Ugh!

Finally made some solid decisions about the next school year. I tend to try different things each year. Not sure why that's so, but I guess I must embrace it. I won't be using the Fabulous Omnibus(History, Theology and Literature) until next year...and if we really love it, all the way through high school.

"Click" for the info on each!
Daniel:
Apologia Chemistry
English/Composition with The Potter's School Live Online
Tapestry of Grace (20th Century History, Literature, Church History and Geography)
A Beka Spelling/Vocabulary
ABeka Consumer Math (2nd Semester)

Jaret:
Apologia Physical Science
English/Composition with The Potter's School Live Online
Tapestry of Grace (20th Century History, Literature, Church History and Geography)
Rod and Staff Spelling/Vocabulary

Ethan:
Tapestry of Grace (20th Century History, Literature, Church History and Geography)

We will all work together on these subjects:

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